I’ve tried to post two times this week when I was weary and the posts went away into no-man’s land.
I said, “Well, God, maybe you don’t like what I’m talking about here … Nephilim and such.
Then I went to the dr. for a procedure, possibly. I wanted the physician to do his thing, to relieve my discomfort. There was a catch. My body needed to react in a healthy manner. So, there was a test involved.
After an hours drive, pain increasing, I began to wonder if God was going to answer prayer my way or did He have a reason for me to stay under the medical care for a bit longer. I surrendered my dilemma to Him.
I just didn’t want to, or so my husband surmised as we talked about it. It was true, willingness didn’t equal wanting to. I tried not to be grumpy.
After all went my way, I’m singing “How Great is our God, sing with me, how great is our God,” when I get a teensy thought. Would I still be great if it hadn’t gone this way?
That brought a tear to my eye. “Yes, Lord.”
So I’m praying for two people that I love dearly facing major medical surgeries. I’ve asked prayer warriors to pray they won’t have to have surgery. I’ve heard of and seen God answer spectacular prayers, simple asking but miraculous results.
As I contemplated God’s power to answer, I also pondered His right to work in our lives through circumstances that make us squirm.
I have absolute assurance in His character and His ability to respond positively to these personal requests. It’s the not knowing that did me in today.
My husband mentioned to a friend that driving to the dr.s was like being with one wife and returning with a completely different wife.
I didn’t realize each was a stretch for him. It’s too easy to get wrapped up in myself.
So, do I believe God is in control? Yes. Do I wish I prayed more for others? Yes. Do I wonder why He wants us involved in the cosmic decisions of life? Yes, oh yes. But then who am I, one of His many disciples trying to figure out an All-knowing,
All-powerful, Merciful yet Just God, which is why Jesus went to the cross? He took my sins upon Himself. I am weak,dear God!
I asked God for a Scripture and this came to mind: 2 Peter 2:9 (NKJV) : then the Lord knows how to deliver the godly out of temptations and to reserve the unjust under punishment for the day of judgment,
Is God in control? I’m glad it’s Him and not me.