Decisions, Decisions

I remember back in the day, my youngest sister, unmarried with a good job, she’d call me and say “I want to go see a play. Will you let me treat you? I want to go on Friday night at 7:00 p.m. What do you say?”

I would think about leaving my husband alone with the kids when I knew he’d be tired. I’d think of leaving him when he was working lots of hours, so I didn’t see him that much. I’d think that I didn’t get out a lot because we had four kids, and we had chosen for me to be a stay-at-home mom. The next thing I knew, she’d be saying, “Connie, do you want to go or not?”

I’d tell her I wanted to go, but I wasn’t sure. Sometimes she’d get mad and say call me when you know. Other times she’d get mad and say, “Just make a decision!”

There are times when it’s so easy to make a decision, and then there are times when options need to be weighed and it’s not a split second choice.

She would get over her anger, but I don’t remember going to any plays with her. She had other sisters and friends to choose from.

Being single, what she didn’t realize was the commitments I had to fulfill. If she came over to visit and I needed to do laundry, she sometimes resented it if I took time to fold laundry while we chatted. Over the years we both grew up and became less selfish.

The last decision I made concerning her was to head home early after a visit with her. She wasn’t well and I felt the pressure of the Christmas holidays. I wanted to get my cards in the mail. She had a contagious disease and so I stayed in the doorway to her room, although my other sister told me it wasn’t that serious and she was seated closer by her.

Later that day, she fell and ended up in the hospital. Christmas Day I went to see her with my youngest daughter. My youngest brother joined us, which was a treat and we even spent the day with him and his family since we’d made such a long drive. My husband had plans he didn’t want to change and I was fine with that.

The nurse contradicted the doctor that called me in the middle of Christmas Eve night. He said she was not going to be around for long, thus, our last minute decision to head north.  The nurse said my sister always pulled through. She had many close calls over the years.

About a week later, my baby sister decided she’d worked hard enough to try and pull her body through the diseases that tormented her. She told us she was ready to go see Jesus, her Lord and Savior. How I wanted her to hang around. But it became apparent to me that I was being selfish. I think my other younger sister pointed that out to me. Who am I to determine if someone should relax and let God take them? I can encourage that someone to fight and pray and hold on, but God and they have the final say.

So, I told her goodbye with a roomful of people that loved her, including some of the hospital personnel that got to know her well from her many times with them. One lady told us that my sister was very courageous.

I love the fact that Jesus said in John 14 that we have a place in heaven for us when our time on earth is done. Here is a section of  John 14:  John 14:1, (ESV)  “Let not your hearts be troubled. Believe in God; believe also in me.

Joh 14:2  In my Father’s house are many rooms. If it were not so, would I have told you that I go to prepare a place for you?

Joh 14:3  And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and will take you to myself, that where I am you may be also.

Joh 14:4  And you know the way to where I am going.”

Joh 14:5  Thomas said to him, “Lord, we do not know where you are going. How can we know the way?”

Joh 14:6  Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.

Joh 14:7  If you had known me, you would have known my Father also. From now on you do know him and have seen him.”

Joh 14:8  Philip said to him, “Lord, show us the Father, and it is enough for us.”

Joh 14:9  Jesus said to him, “Have I been with you so long, and you still do not know me, Philip? Whoever has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, ‘Show us the Father’?

Joh 14:10  Do you not believe that I am in the Father and the Father is in me? The words that I say to you I do not speak on my own authority, but the Father who dwells in me does his works.

Joh 14:11  Believe me that I am in the Father and the Father is in me, or else believe on account of the works themselves.

Joh 14:12  “Truly, truly, I say to you, whoever believes in me will also do the works that I do; and greater works than these will he do, because I am going to the Father.

Joh 14:13  Whatever you ask in my name, this I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.

Joh 14:14  If you ask me anything in my name, I will do it.

As we saw our family member at the end of her life, we asked Jesus to relieve her pain and to take her home. He did. I will see her again.

1Co 15:53 For this perishable body must put on the imperishable, and this mortal body must put on immortality.
1Co 15:54 When the perishable puts on the imperishable, and the mortal puts on immortality, then shall come to pass the saying that is written: “Death is swallowed up in victory.”
1Co 15:55 “O death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?”
1Co 15:56 The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law.
1Co 15:57 But thanks be to God, who gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.
1Co 15:58 Therefore, my beloved brothers, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, knowing that in the Lord your labor is not in vain.

May God bless you!

6 responses

  1. Constance, may our Lord God Father and Savior bless you in the memories that you retain of your beloved sister. The peace He gives to us when we loose the physical presence of our loved ones is only followed by a great joy for those who depart into the loving arms of our Father. I know that I did not mourn long at all for my mother this year, since I knew without doubt she had passed on to the home which those who love God will follow. And we are promised to see one another again. Praise God! We miss them, but we all must remember that this physical state IS temporary and the times to celebrate and love and commune with each other is here and now, before we go. When we leave the biggest thing that we take with us when we go to Him, is love. Everything else is shed and what remains is that pure and great love. Love we had for others and others had for us. In the scriptures we are reminded that we can have all kinds of gifts and manifestations of God’s Holy Spirit, but the greatest of these is love. Love can do no harm to oneself or others. In the old testament, King David repeats some lines over and over again….”His love endures forever”. What a great God we have and what great love He has for his people. May you be blessed daughter of the Most High.

    • Thank you very much. May you be blessed as His beloved, as well. I appreciate your comments. It does help a lot knowing she trusted in Jesus! May the Holy Spirit be your comfort if you get missing your mom more at a later date. Possibly that won’t happen because death has lost its sting. Blessings to you and yours.

  2. thanks for sharing, I have just recently loss a sister in christ few days ago. It would be more heartbreaking to know that my own sister left for glory land. I will miss her so. hugs to you. I hope you are coping well and griefing well during this time for berevement.

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