Walk It Out

Psalm 25:4-5 (NKJV): Show me Your ways, O Lord; Teach me Your paths. Lead me in Your truth and teach me, For You are the God of my salvation; on You I wait all day.

I began my day in a strange way today, thinking of the future with tears in my eyes as I pictured a sad probability. As I sat with my Bible and opened it to read, the first thing I saw was Psalm 23: 4b-6, (NKJV): I will fear no evil; For You are with me; Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; You anoint my head with oil; My cup runs over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me All the days of my life, And I will dwell in the house of the Lord Forever.

Before I sat down to be with God, my youngest texted me. Mom, I have an idea for your blog on organizing/decluttering today: “If you haven’t used it in 6 or more months, get rid of it! Even if you really don’t want to.  It will help you break past emotional, materialistic issues.”

Most experts say if you haven’t used it in a year, etc. Some say to put the stuff in a box or bag, store it away and in a year if you’ve never gone near it, don’t open it! Give it to your favorite charity or sell it.

I got thinking of all the things I’ve held onto and I almost panicked. “Dear God, help  me.”

So I sat down to my cleared kitchen table – “Thank You, Jesus for the changes You are gently encouraging me to make.”

I read beyond Psalm 23. Psalm 24: 3-5 (NKJV) says: “Who may ascend into the hill of the Lord? Or who may stand in His holy place? He who has clean hands and a pure heart, Who has not lifted up his soul to an idol. Nor sworn deceitfully.

He shall receive blessing from the Lord, And righteousness from the God of his salvation.”

“Is that my problem? Are things an idol to me, Lord?”

So, I speak the words, “I repent, Lord, I truly repent.”

Now for His grace to walk it out.

Be blessed my friends.

Christmas Preparations

I’ve been trying to write my Christmas letter to include it in Christmas cards for days now. What to say, how to say it? I kept it short, I didn’t point out a fault like I’m about to do here.

Our Thursday night Bible study “Peacemaking: Responding to Conflict Biblically,” by Dr. Jimmy Ray Lee and Brad Rymer is based on the book The Peacemaker written by Ken Sande. Tonight’s lesson talked about not having idols. If we put other things, even ourselves before God, we can go to war at home, at our workplace, at school, as we drive our cars, etc.

Why? Because it’s all about us, all about getting our own way. God help the person or people that get in our way if we need to have that thing that makes us feel shiny inside. Even if that thing is totally unnecessary, possibly addictive and not good for us, even steps on others toes. We need it, we want it, get out of our way!

I was humbled thinking about this concept. Last night I sucked the joy right out of my husband by letting him know that one Christmas gift he gave me didn’t make my heart shine even though his face shone as he gave it to me. I kept it inside all this time and then when I told him, I wished I could be a time changer and just move the hands of the clock back two minutes. I apologized and he seemed okay, but we had a quieter night than usual. Why do we hurt the ones we love? Who cares if a Christmas gift is perfect? Since when do things matter more than people and their intentions?

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(photo from newbrighton-connect.com)

I blamed it on Walt Disney today with a group of women. 🙂

He gave us fairy tales and somewhere along the way I decided I needed to be treated like a princess. My husband doesn’t demand to be treated like a prince. Why didn’t he get sucked into the fairy tale world of make believe? I’m glad he doesn’t hold grudges and he accepts apologies. On my way home from tonight’s Bible study I thought of telling him not to get me a Christmas present. I don’t really need one.

Then I thought, No, I don’t want to go that far.

“Help my attitude, Lord I pray.”

Before I blogged this, I told him I was going to blog about our discussion if it was okay with him. He said it was fine with him if it was okay with me. I love my husband. He cares.